At first this blog started out as a joke. "I think I'll be a blogger. Perhaps a lifestyle blogger"... yeah okay.
Then it occurred to me; I should be blogging. My life has truly been one lesson after another. My everyday life is actually pretty interesting. It's not that I think that you need to know about my day to day affairs, it's more that if there is anything I can offer - ANYTHING at all - even if it's just something to laugh and make fun of with your own friends, then I've done what I need to do. And let's be honest, once I start posting on here there may be a few things you could actually learn - who knows?
So let’s start at the beginning. What really made me do it?
That is how I felt for years.
This was the topic of the inconsistent battle within myself. Some days I knew who I was with confidence, others not so much. You know that wake up, feel great, could conquer the world kind of feeling. Other days it was like an endless battle of mind games in my head. I thought that this was a bad thing, that knowing who I was, was important or vital to everything I stand for. It wasn't until the past year that I realized I actually do know who I am.
It isn’t the fear of not knowing... it's the fear of knowing.
When we are in the journey to find ourselves, we can never fail. You can try new things and decide they aren’t for you. It's not until you "know who you are" that there becomes this room for error. There is a chance that people won’t like you. There is a chance that people could expect you to change - that is a VERY SCARY THING. I am a dreamer. I am strong. I am compassionate. I have passion, and I am not afraid to show it. I have always worked hard to gain others approval, when truth is there is no person in this world whose approval I need to gain except myself. I love to read and write and I love pictures. I love my family. I love feeling excited and passionate about things - even the littlest of things. I love music with lyrics that makes me feel. I am also a fighter. I am sometimes even too passionate (if that's even a thing). However, I am no longer scared to say I know who I am. In fact, I am proud to admit it.
It's about surrounding yourself with beautiful souls and places. It’s about taking the time to thank the people who gave you the time you needed to discover who you are and then encouraged you to grow into that person.
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